i don't want things to end

nostalgia and coping with the inevitable end of things

I’ve never been a person who liked endings, and lately I’ve been thinking about nostalgia and how difficult it is to truly move on from something. I don’t know if anyone feels the same way but I tend to create sentimental attachments to almost everything in my life. I cling to nostalgia and it never ever leaves me.

What I’ve realised is that I have trouble coping with the inevitable end of things. It’s hard to accept the fact that nothing truly lasts forever and if only I could freeze a moment in time and just stay in it forever.

Haunted by a quiet yearning and all you can do is relive those past moments through memories. And no matter how hard you try it’s just impossible to let go.

I think deep down what I really fear is change. Change is bound to happen and we can’t expect things to stay the same. All of those moments and memories will always be a part of us and I suppose there’s a bit of comfort in knowing that.

This may be unrelated but it’s the same bittersweet feeling when you’re watching the last episode of your favourite tv show or reading the last few pages of your favourite book series. You don’t want the story to end and you wished that it would go on forever. And obviously you can always go back and rewatch the show or reread the book again but it just doesn’t feel the same anymore.

But endings don’t have to be a bad thing, and I choose to believe that there’s some form of beauty in it. And just because things end it doesn’t mean that it wasn’t important.

I suppose it gets better as time goes on but there will always be a lingering ache in the heart that never truly goes away. A longing for what once was.

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Thank you so much for reading.

With love, Darrel.